Better Than You

Raindrops tap against the window
My fingers tap against my phone
The sound, it matches but it feels wrong
I hang up and I'm alone

I do feel sorry for you, my friend
But you feel more sorry for yourself
I'm not looking for complications
You're not looking for simple help

Are we really in this together
Misery loves company
But I prefer mine alone
Now you feel bad, and I've felt better
I've got a sobstory
and some issues of my own

We pull in opposite directions
I struggle up while you fall down
I guess in our own way, we're both trying
But you get lost and I get found

Are we really in this together
Misery loves company
But I prefer mine alone
And I feel bad, but you'll feel better
I've got plenty of problems
but I'll solve them on my own

You're feeling low, you're feeling blue
And you're convinced I'm not as lonely as you
You've got your fears, you've got mine too
Your heart is worn, and mine's as good as new

I shed a tear, and you shed two
And you insist I'm doing better than you
I broke your heart when I broke through,
But at least I'm doing better than you

But at least I'm doing better than you.

We’re not really in this together
Misery loves company
But I prefer mine alone
And you feel bad, but I feel better
I’ve got plenty of issues of my own
I prefer my misery alone

I’ll conquer my misery alone.

Yeah, I missed this blog okay.

Miyako's survey~

Name 8 random persons. 4 boys, 4 girls (Including yourself):

1. Miyako

2. Soup

3. Rose

4. Me

5. The Doctor

6. Jack

7. Logan

8. Dean

Now, these persons would be stuck together in the same huge house for the rest of their lives!

1. Oh, there are only 4 rooms to sleep. Who's sleeping where? (Boy-girl couples)

I'll be nice this time. x3 Miyako & Logan, Soup & Dean, Jack & Rose, and me & The Doctor. <3 All seperate beds ofcourse.

2. There has to be a leader, because otherwise the house would turn into a huge mess. Who said that you have to be the leader?

Why do I always have to be the leader? ;w; Whoever decided on that is an idiot.

3. Now you're the leader, what's the first thing you'll do?

Pass the leadership on to someone else.

4. Oh no! Person #1 fell down the stairs. What are you doing?

I'll make sure she's okay of course! Make her stable, have the Doctor check her for concussion and such (since I'm not a Doctor. See? It's very useful to live with a Doctor.) and if she's feeling a bit better, I'll give her chocolate to comfort her. :3

5. That's a pity, the toilet is clogged! Who's fixes it?

That'll be Roses job. No offense.

6. Someone discovered there is a swimmingpool in the center of the house. What kind of swimwear would you wear?

A bikini with a tight shirt and baggy shorts over it.

7. At the end of the day, the house leader has to cook. What are you making?

I'm not the house leader anymore. 8D But I'll cook anyway. Let's all bake pancakes! That'll be fun. :3

8. There's a horror movie in the television. What do you do?

Move somewhere else with the Doctor to do something more interesting. AND to give Miyako (who is unlike me actually scared by the movie or pretends to be) and Logan some private time.

9. While everyone is sleeping, you hear someone singing in the house. What are you going to do?

Record it. The worse they sing the better. Good blackmail material.

10. It's 10 o'clock in the morning. Who will get you out of your bed?

Miyako, by singing, in the shower, Dean, by randomly screaming at someone, or The Doctor, since we share a room.

11. Cleaning time! Who will clean the house?

Rose, since she already clogged the toilet as well. Poor Rose. xD

12. Teehee! There's someone making out! WHO?

Jack and a random housemaid. Or maybe Soup and Dean. Or maybe me and a certain Doctor... Or maybe.... All of the above.

13. Who would start dating after a few weeks?

See question 12. (I'm so mean. xD)

14. There are burglars in the house! What would everyone do now?

We will hide in the closet (which is brought by the Doctor, so it's bigger on the inside), and make sure Dean doesn't start screaming so The Doctor and Jack can kick the burglars' asses with their awesomeness.

15. Person #7 found a secret chamber! What's in the secret chamber?

All this alien-looking stuff! And it's huge! But not on the outside. Turns out it's the TARDIS, which is parked in one of the spare rooms.

16. Oh my gosh! Everyone started to hate the same person! Who?

Logan, because he took Miyako all for himself, and we all want her attention! ;w;

17. Person #3 kissed Person #5. What now?

Well, that's not exactly surprising. But, poor Rose. This story takes place in an alternate universe where The Doctor doesn't love her. x3 So it's tough on her. But well, the Doctor getting kissed by someone he's not in love with, that's nothing new. x3

18. Everyone is bored. Who's going to make a huge chocolat cake?

Me and Soup! 8D The ugliest chocolate cake in history! With two platforms!

19. Years are passing by, everyone is growing older. Who's getting ugly?

No one. WE'RE ALL SO HAWT. <3 But of course, the Doctor is getting the least unattractive.

20. Person #6 said that he/she loves you. How are you reacting?

Say; "Aww, I love you too. But just in a matey way." He'll probably smile, shrug, and move on to the next individual he can seduce.

21. There's a fight between Person #2 and Person #4, what will the others do?

It's about whose fault it was that the cake turned out like this. The others all agree with #4, and tell #2, it was because she ruined the whipped cream and therefore, it was her fault. She'll accept it, and we'll be mates again. :3

22. Who would eat all the cookies in the house?

Miyako. Obviously.

23. Another couple starts dating. Who?

Jack and the mail delivery person. (The ninth one that is. The other eight were fired for flirting with costumers. Although of course, it was the other way around.)

24. There are two persons sitting on the bank, kissing. Who? And who saw that?

Dean and Soup. Jack and I saw it, and Jack decided to go "BOO!" which freaked Dean out, so he started screaming like a girl.

25. Someone just gave birth to the first "The House"-child! What's the name of the cutie? And who are the parents!

*sigh* Alright then. The parents were Logan and Miyako. (Yes Logan was killed for stealing Miyako's innocence. Twice. By me, Jack, Soup and The Doctor. :3) The little girl's name was Johanna II, named after their favourite person in the world. =D

26. After 10 years in the house, everyone can get out if they want. And now?

They can, yeah. But they won't of course. Because it's so much fun all living together and-

Hang on. 10 years. Then you'll be 26. BUT YOU ALREADY GAVE BIRTH. When was that. A few years ago? LOGAAAAAAN. *glares*

Aaanyway. Yeah. Teehee.

I'm a survey-thieve. 83

1.) Pick 8 random people (including yourself for number 7).

1. The Doctor

2. Dean

3. Logan

4. Jack

5. Miyako

6. Soup

7. Yami

8. Mao

Sorry Mao. I would include Jui... But Jack is just too epic not to be in this. ;w;

2.) There are four rooms, who would be in each room (Boy-Girl couples)?

- Soup & Dean

- Miyako & Jack (She's probably safer that way. And to say that about Jack. That's rare. xD Well... Maybe it's more for Logan's safety.)

- Mao & Logan

- Yami & The Doctor (separate beds, obviously.)

3.) In the house, who is more like the Mommy and the Daddy? :3

Mao is YO MOMMA NIGGAH. Since she's the eldest... and well. She can be pretty mom-ish at times. And WHO'S YA DADDY? That'll be... Umm... Well. Let's just pick the eldest as well. Which makes it The Doctor.

4.) You really want to eat chocolate one day, which person would you take it from? XP

Mao. She always has chocolate somewhere. And she'll forgive me for stealing it. :3

5.) Who would nag and complain the most about someone using their shampoo? XDD

That'll be Miyako. It's the shampoo she stole from Logan, and she loves it because it smells just like him. (It can't be him who used it by the way, since we have separate bathrooms. TOO BAD. xD)

6.) Someone ate all the cookies! Who did it?

Well, Logan took a few bites, and then Miyako finished them all, going crazy with the thought that Logan's saliva might still be on them. (Her words, I'm telling you. >.>)

7.) Who would be the one that cleans the whole house?

Well, to everyone's surprise, Miyako volunteered. Probably so she can steal things from Logan's room and smell his bedsheets.

8.) A cockroach is crawling on the floor.

~Who's the one that screams first?

Obviously that'll be Dean. Just sayin'.

~Who would be the one that jumps on the chair?

Soup. She was just going along with Dean so he didn't look like a wuss.

~Who would be the one that takes care of the cockroach?

Jack will destroy with his Sonic Blaster. BANG BANG. (Since the Sonic Screwdriver doesn't kill.

9.) Who would be the loudest? XD

I'd say Logan, since he's the musician and all. But he looks like the quiet type, so actually, it'd probably be me. xD

10.) If someone were to wake up the whole house with pots, who would it be? XP

Definitely me. Possibly accompanied by Jack. It seems like him to do that.

11.) Who would be dragging you along to watch a horror movie? X3

The Doctor of course. But wait. Why horror? I'm not gonna pretend to be scared and grab his hand or anything.

12.) Who would you be closest with? :3

Soup, Mao and the Doctor. And Miyako, if she still had time for us besides all her stalking business. And I guess Jack would be a good mate as well. :3

Poor Miyako. xD I do love you though. ^^

On a Deserted Island With Fangirls and Awesome People.

First Boy: The Doctor
Second Boy: Jack Harkness
Third Boy: Dean Wincester
Fourth Boy: Logan -idontknowhislastname-
First Girl: Yami
Second Girl: Miyako
Third Girl: Soup
Fourth Girl: Rose Tyler

The Plane

Where was your flight headed?
Still Japan.
Why were you going there?
The Doctor insisted on going there to help the earthquake victims.
Who was the one running up and down the aisles?
Soup and Dean, chasing each other.
When the plane was going down, who was hysterical?
Dean, Soup, Miyako, Logan and me. Rose, Jack and the Doctor were perfectly calm. I mean, what's a little plane crash compared to a spaceship-crash right?
Who was helping put oxygen masks on?
Rose and Jack. The Doctor was busy plotting a rescueing plan.
Who was praying?
Soup and Miyako.
Who were you sitting with?
The Doctor. Like dúh. (By the way, we're in a parallel universe we're Rose and The Doctor aren't in love. ;3)
Who was in the bathroom?
Dean. He got flight-sick.
Who was making out?
Jack and some random stewardess.

The Island

Who was the first to check out the spot?
The Doctor.
Who was still crying from the crash?
Dean and Logan. Always the guys right?
Who was running around to help out?
Rose. Domestic approach all the way.
Who was helping put up a shelter?
Jack and Soup. Miyako was to busy comforting Logan.
Who was building a fire?
The Doctor, lighting it with his sonic screwdriver.
Who was playing with fire?
Soup.
Who was freaking out because they lost all their clothes?
I'm sorry but that's gotta be rose. xD
Who was freaking out because they lost all their electronics?
Logan I suppose.
Who is trying to write a huge S.O.S. in the sand?
Miyako and me.
You're the Leader- Who appointed you?
The Doctor. He was being sarcastic, but no one got that.
What's your first act?
Ask the Doctor to take over. x3

Split the group into 4 teams, one boy and girl.

Team One: Miyako & Logan
Team Two: Soup & Dean
Team Three: Rose & Jack
Team Four: The Doctor & Yami

What team would you send for wood?
Team Two.
What team would you send hunting/fishing/gathering?
Rose and Jack. Jack could just shoot them with his sonic blaster-thingie.
What team would be put in charge of scourging the remains of the plane?
Team one. Since Logan was still crying, the Doctor didn't bother making him do anything. x3
What team would run off and make out?
Question is. Which team doesn't? xD I mean Rose and Jack don't, but Jack would find someone else to make out with.
What team would only look for their possessions and blow off the mission?
No one. We're not lame like that.
What team would get chased by hostile aboriginals?
Team two, because Dean accidentally said something funny to anger them.
What team would come back empty handed?
Team one, after the Doctor concluded that there weren't any aliens on the islands.
What team would come back a few days later with armfuls of gold?
Team three, because when they went to save Dean and Soup (they're epic like that), Jack politely introduced to the aboriginals, causing all of them to fall for him. Therefore, they gave him gold.

Three Weeks Later

Who was the first to go crazy?
Umm, being in the presence of both Jack and The Doctor, obviously me.
Who starts dating?
Soup and Dean, Miyako and Logan and The Doctor and me. :3
Who puts war paint on and wants to fight the aboriginals?
Dean and Logan. Because 21st Century human guys just have to fight...
Who tries to swim home?
Soup, since she brought her diving equipment and- Oh, this is getting old. =.='
There's a love triangle, who's in it?
Jack, and a bunch of aboriginals. Well actually it's not exactly a triangle. More like a love square. Or a love pentagon. Or a love... Something with a lot of sides.
The two contestors fight over the one in the middle. Who dies?
Dean, obviously. Because he always does. No biggie though, he just came back to life again after a while.
What does the subject of the fight do?
He just stands there, smirking, saying something like; "Oh come on, monogamy is só 50th Century! There's enough me for everyone~"
Supplies run out, you're hungry! Who do you eat?
Well, the Doctor turns out to be a very good cook, and Jack easily adapts to his new Tarzan-lifestyle (At least the look suits him), and catches us some yummy animals.
Alright, two people dead. Who's the most devastated?

The Doctor, saying "Sorry. I'm so sorry."
Who's the first to question your leadership?
Me. 8D

Escape

Who tries to make a raft?
Jack, being all Tarzan. He's much more experienced with spaceshipt though.
Who enlists the help of the aboriginals?
Jack, since they all fell for him anyway.

Who comes up with the best idea?
The Doctor, being the genius he is.
Who tries to start an uprisal against your leadership?
The aboriginals. Because we're starting to figure out a way to leave the island, and they don't wanna part from Jack.
How do you respond?
I point at the Doctor saying he's the one in charge. Me being the leader was only sarcasm after all.
How do you end up escaping?
Well, after everything we tried to get home, the Doctor suddenly remembers he brought the TARDIS with him in his pocket -which is, of course, bigger on the inside- and so we can all have a safe trip home inside the TARDIS.
What happens when you get home?
Well... After taking everyone home safely, the Doctor parks the TARDIS somewhere in between our homes and we make it our permanent campsite. <3

Home

Whose parents are freaking out?
Miyako and Soup's parents.
What do the dead kids' parents do?
As far as I know they're either dead or missing...
Whose parents adopted another kid?
Logan's parents.
Whose parents ran off to L.A?
Logan's parents. Since they already live in the US anyway, I assume.
Whose parents got depressed and moved?
Miyako's parents. They moved closer to Hoogeveen. 8D
Whose parents didn't care?
Well... Jackie did care, but she's kinda used to Rose being away for a long time, so she wasn't freaking out this time.
Whose parents went looking?
Soup's parents. They're restaurant was getting understaffed, so they really needed her for work.

I'm so mean. x3

THE END.

100 Facts about The Dark

1. My real name is Johanna.
2. My nickname is Yami, which is Japanese for 'darkness'.
3. I'm actually not a dark person at all. Lately I've been very happy and hyper.
4. I will turn 18 on May 29th this year.
5. Even though I'm not that much of a dark person, I am actually pretty sadictic.
6. I enjoy watching anime and reading manga.
7. I tend to get pretty obsessive about the things I like.
8. Lately I've been very obsessed with Doctor Who, and its lead actor David Tennant.
9. I am also a shameless Shakespeare-Geek. I especially love Hamlet.
10. I think Scottish accents are sexy.
11. I like both girls and boys but refuse to classify myself as 'bisexual'.
12. I have a strange fascination for teachers.
13. I'm terrified of hospitals. I'll faint when I enter one.
14. I met two of my best friends through the internet and they mean the world to me.
15. I have a sidekick called Mao. Only she thinks I am her sidekick. So does the rest of the world. They are all wrong.
16. I enjoy filling out surveys and stating random facts about myself.
17. I enjoy almost every form of art, except dancing and three-dimensional work.
18. I love to act. My specialty is imitating someone who suffers from MPD.
19. I think Converse All Stars are the most sexy footwear either a girl or a guy can ever wear.
20. I am not a brand whore.
21. I'm poor because I spend all my money on travelling by train. This is because most of my friends live far away.
22. Whenever I think of my friends, I consider myself a very lucky girl, for I have the most wonderful friends in the world.
23. I like meeting foreign people online and talking in English to them. I don't know why, I just like talking in English.
24. I really enjoy faking accents, even though I'm really bad at it.
25. I am currently trying to learn to speak English with a Scottish accent.
26. I like memorizing lyrics and other tekst. I know a sonnet and two Hamlet-soliloquies by heart.
27. I really like talking about my obsessions. I can talk about them all day and annoy everyone around me. xD
28. When I have to wait for the train or something, I observe people and make up a background story for them. I give them a name, personality, and a reason to be at that spot at that moment.
29. I couldn't survive three days without my music.
30. I am a fandubber, which means I record myself singing anime- and vocaloid-songs, and upload it to YouTube.
31. I am also in three Youtube-choruses, of which I'm very proud. 8D
32. My life sucked up until a year ago. Now it's great. <3
33. I get really nervous and uncomfortable when guys or adults touch me, but I can get extremely clingy to girls and boys I consider harmless.
34. I hate dentists. And yes I am afraid of going to see them, because they always want to hurt me. They do, it's their job.
35. I also have a slight phobia of tunnels. Maybe because I had lots of nightmares about them.
36. I used to have nightmares all the time when I was a kid. I still do sometimes, only most of them don't really scare me anymore.
37. Movies never ever scare me except for one; Perfect Blue
38. As opposed to movies, what does scare me is the news. Because that's real, and most of the time, it's just as scary.
39. I enjoy shipping non-canon yaoi (boyxboy) and yuri (girlxgirl) couples, but hardly ever like the canon ones.
40. I could never hurt someone on purpose, but I do imagine torturing people in the most cruel ways when I'm really angry.
41. I can spend hours on wikipedia just looking stuff up. I've read almost every Shakespeare-related wikipedia page, and also the one about dreams, about MPD, about schizophrenia and other psychological matters.
42. Yes, I like psychology. But I prefer thinking about it myself rather than reading what other people found out about it.
43. I'm a very philosophical person and ponder on things a lot.
44. I have a very complicated family, which I'm not gonna explain. But I have 5 sisters and 2 brothers, and they're from 4 mothers and 2 fathers. And that's keeping it simple.
45. I have never broken a limb, and have never been in the hospital for myself. THANK GOD.
46. I have a thing for clueless girls.
47. I also have a thing for musicians. I think they're the most attractive people on earth.
48. I have have never touched a cigarette in my 17 years on earth, which I am proud of.
49. I have also never been drunk, which I am proud of as well.
50. I have also never done drugs.
51. I am a virgin.
52. I dislike Twilight purely because of the extremely annoying fandom. I've seen the first movie and actually kind of liked it. xD
53. I really like to fool people. x3
54. I get really nervous when I have to perform something in front of a crowd, but I love the experience.
55. I prefer the English language over Dutch, and though Dutch is my native tongue, I often find myself unable to express myself in Dutch, but not in English.
56. I witnessed my friend eating a spider one day. It's not exactly about me, but I think it's worth mentioning.
57. I absolutely love photography. Especially people. I love photographing people, even if they don't like having their picture taken. x3
58. I organize photoshoots for fun.
59. I think human beings are extremely beautiful creatures, and sometimes have a hard time not staring when I stumble upon an extraordinary beautiful example.
60. I love the stars, and have had the most romantic fantasies of watching them with someone I love since I was a child. I have yet to make this happen though.
61. I've loved beautiful landscapes ever since I was in kindergarten and I can get sincerely moved just by being in a beautiful place.
62. I'm a very sentimental person and can get really emotional just by thinking about the past, browsing through old photographs and reminiscing about the good old times. Everything brings back memories to me. Therefore, everything I own has at least some emotional value. Especially things like train tickets and little notes.
63. I love to write, which is why I have a blog full of bullshit. I also write poems, stories and lyrics.
64. I consider myself an artistic person. =)
65. I am actually a hopeless romantic, but I've never been in a relationship with someone I really loved so I never had the opportunity to do anything romantic. xD
66. When I'm in the shower or lying awake in my bed, I get some of my most brilliant ideas, but I forget them before I get the chance to write them down.
67. Most of my so called 'screen crushes' have been older men (30-40) which implies I have a bit of a father complex. However, this doesn't really apply to me in real life except for one person. x3
68. I love arafat scarves. I own 5 of them in different colours and wear one everyday. I tend to feel naked when I'm not wearing one.
69. I spend a lot of time on the internet.
70. I absolutely loathe testosterone.
71. I have insomnia and anemia, which is a baaad combination. xD Especially when you already have a bad stamina to begin with. OTL
72. I use text-emoticons like xD, =), =D, :3, x3, O.o and ^^ a lot, but I hate actual image-emotiocons.
73. I prefer Skype over msn.
74. I hate social media like Twitter and Facebook. Even though I use Twitter way to much.
75. Currently I am madly in love. And no, I'm not telling you who it is. xD
76. My eyes are green, but on some pictures they look blue. O.o
77. Even though I'm almost 18, I don't intend to get my driver's license anytime soon. I prefer travelling by train anyway.
78. In elementary school I was a gloomy kid who got bullied.
79. I hate shows like X-factor and Popstars, but I kinda liked The Voice Of Holland, up until the liveshows.
80. I am completely hopeless at math.
81. But for some reason I'm pretty good at Biology.
82. I am actually really optimistic. Sometimes it scares me. xD
83. I can't stand people who make a problem out of everything, yet I used to be like that myself.
84. I love chocolate.
85. I don't wear make-up most of the time. Only when I feel like it, and for special occasions.
86. I'm running out of inspiration.
87. I only made this list because Mao did it. And because I actually really don't have time for it. Which indeed doesn't make any sense.
88. I kinda regret making this list instead of watching Doctor Who.
89. I don't like Lady GaGa's songs, but I do respect her... Just because she's so weird.
90. I get really annoyed by scientists trying to find out the things like purpose of life and the meaning of love.
91. I get even more annoyed by scientists claiming that the sole purpose of life is reproduction.
92. I tend to get quite protective of the people I care about.
93. Most of my friends are younger than me.
94. While I'm making this list I should actually be either sleeping or studying.
95. I absolutely adore eccentric intellectual fictional characters like Hamlet, House and The Doctor. (Especially the latter ;D)
96. I love learning, but I hate studying.
97. I'm terrified of wasps.
98. I have a huge imagination and think up the craziest things.
99. I like having absolutely random conversations about nothing.
100. I pretty much collect train tickets.