Don't.

The world looks different when you’re barefoot
On a steep and snowy hill,
Every bit as terrifying
And more terrifying still.

The world looks different from a roof
Of a twelve-story department store
I feared it from up on the hill,
From up here I fear it more.

The world looks different in the dark,
When all you see is the unknown
And the land is eerily quiet
And you feel eerily alone.

The world looks different when you’re falling
At a thousand miles per hour
And your body you let go of,
For the concrete to devour.

The world looks different when you swallow,
On your way to paradise.
But the view, though grand, I promise,
Isn’t worth the sacrifice.

Better Than You

Raindrops tap against the window
My fingers tap against my phone
The sound, it matches but it feels wrong
I hang up and I'm alone

I do feel sorry for you, my friend
But you feel more sorry for yourself
I'm not looking for complications
You're not looking for simple help

Are we really in this together
Misery loves company
But I prefer mine alone
Now you feel bad, and I've felt better
I've got a sobstory
and some issues of my own

We pull in opposite directions
I struggle up while you fall down
I guess in our own way, we're both trying
But you get lost and I get found

Are we really in this together
Misery loves company
But I prefer mine alone
And I feel bad, but you'll feel better
I've got plenty of problems
but I'll solve them on my own

You're feeling low, you're feeling blue
And you're convinced I'm not as lonely as you
You've got your fears, you've got mine too
Your heart is worn, and mine's as good as new

I shed a tear, and you shed two
And you insist I'm doing better than you
I broke your heart when I broke through,
But at least I'm doing better than you

But at least I'm doing better than you.

We’re not really in this together
Misery loves company
But I prefer mine alone
And you feel bad, but I feel better
I’ve got plenty of issues of my own
I prefer my misery alone

I’ll conquer my misery alone.

Yeah, I missed this blog okay.

Renaissance

Oké... Dit kwam vanmorgen toen ik nog in bed lag ineens in me op. Het lijkt in niets op mijn gebruikelijke schrijfstijl, en ik weet nog steeds niet helemaal waar het over gaat, maargoed.

Zwijgend liep ze

Op haar blote voeten

Door de sneeuw.

Van pijn of kou klaagde ze niet.

Noch van ellende of verdriet.

De tranen op haar wangen

Reeds bevroren.

De veldslag die ze vocht

Was al verloren.

Hijgend zat ze

Op haar blote knieën

In de sneeuw.

Slechts een lege huls

Van een eens gebroken ziel.

Haar ogen stonden

Donker en verlaten.

Het maanlicht drong

Nog nauwelijks tot haar door.

Roerloos lag haar

Onderkoelde lichaam

In de sneeuw.

Van spijt of wanhoop sprak ze niet.

Noch van ellende of verdriet.

Haar plaatsvervanger

Werd met haast geboren.

Van zijn gehuil

Kon ze soms flarden horen.

En vlak voordat ze toegaf aan het licht,

Sierde een laatste glimlach haar gezicht.

Volgens mij zit het zo. Of ze gaat dood. Of ze baart een kind. Of allebei. Denk ik. Is het raar om je eigen gedichten niet te snappen? xD

It Hurts Like Freaking Hell

It's been a while since that time

Everything has changed

But even so, there are some things

That just remained the same

Ever since I broke it

Every single day

There will always be something

That makes me feel this way

Even though I gave you up

Even though we're through

Why does everything just

keep reminding me of you?

So how long are you planning to keep haunting me like this?

How long will you keep forcing me to reminisce?

I know what you'll say, if I'd go and try again

Even now, I know your words by heart

"You are way too late.

Nothing can be done

I know how much you cared for me,

But those days are gone."

Even now, I know your words by heart.

And even after all this time, they're tearing me apart.

I guess it did get better

After a little while

And now I'm even able

to remember with a smile

But only happy memories

The difference you can tell;

Remembering your final words

Still hurts like freaking hell

So how long are to planning to keep running through my head?

And how long will it take you to drive me completely mad?

I know the way you'll look at me, if I would try again

Even now I know your face by heart.

Your freckles and your lips

And your somewhat troubled eyes

A pretty face like that

was never hard to memorize

Even now I know your face by heart

And even after all this time, it's tearing me apart

But apart from that, you see

The sun is shining bright

I've made some new friends, had some fun

And everything's alright

But even though these last few weeks

I've been doing very well

Remembering your final words

Still hurts like freaking hell.

Of Love, Romance and Poetry.

Mao en ik hebben een onderwerp voor ons PWS! =D We zijn afgeweken van de Victoriaanse Tijd, aangezien dat binnen het vak alleen maar mag gaan over literatuur uit die tijd. Een kwade macht (genaamd Steenbergen ofzo) heeft ervoor gezorgd dat wij namelijk niet zijn ingedeeld bij het vak van onze heilige vrouwe (nee, niet Maria, die andere), geschiedenis. En dus zitten we bij Engels. Dus wij dachten; Dan maar Shakespeare! Wat eigenlijk best een goed idee bleek te zijn! Bij het research doen las ik een paar Sonnetten, en ja, dat wekte de Hopeloze Romanticus in mij tot leven (JA die zit er echt). Shakespeare was best een geniale man.

Fair is my love, but not so fair as fickle;

Mild as a dove, but neither true nor trusty;

Brighter than glass, and yet, as glass is, brittle;

Softer than wax, and yet, as iron, rusty:

A lily pale, with damask dye to grace her,

None fairer, nor none falser to deface her.

(Uit A Passionate Pilgrim, verse 6)

I weep for thee, and yet no cause I have;

For why thou left'st me nothing in thy will:

And yet thou left'st me more than I did crave;

For why I craved nothing of thee still:

(Uit A Passionate Pilgrim, verse 10)

Beauty is but a vain and doubtful good;

A shining gloss that vadeth suddenly;

A flower that dies when first it gins to bud;

A brittle glass that's broken presently:

A doubtful good, a gloss, a glass, a flower,

Lost, vaded, broken, dead within an hour.

And as goods lost are seld or never found,

As vaded gloss no rubbing will refresh,

As flowers dead lie wither'd on the ground,

As broken glass no cement can redress,

So beauty blemish'd once's for ever lost,

In spite of physic, painting, pain and cost.

(A Passionate Pilgrim, verse 13)

My flocks feed not,

My ewes breed not,

My rams speed not,

All is amiss:

Love's denying,

Faith's defying,

Heart's renying,

Causer of this.

(Uit A Passionate Pilgrim, verse 18)

What is your substance, whereof are you made,

That millions of strange shadows on you tend?

Since every one hath, every one, one shade,

And you but one, can every shadow lend.

(Uit Sonnet 53)

Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore,

So do our minutes hasten to their end;

Each changing place with that which goes before,

In sequent toil all forwards do contend.

(Uit Sonnet 60)

That thou art blamed shall not be thy defect,

For slander's mark was ever yet the fair;

The ornament of beauty is suspect,

A crow that flies in heaven's sweetest air.

(Uit Sonnet 70)

Noem me een nerd, maar dit vind ik mooi. ^^

Poems and Lyrics Update.

Van oud naar nieuw. 8D

Rebirth [Poem]

A tiny light began to shimmer

In my pitch black mind

Right before the end of time

I got stuck on rewind

Now everything is starting over

But this time I drag behind

First I want to be someone

Before my visions drive me blind

No longer will I be afraid

No longer will I feel alone

In your eyes, I've been a failure

In your heart I don't exist

But I will make you proud someday

I'll be someone worthy of a name.

- Inspired by myself

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Like Snowflakes and Rose Petals [Poem]

Snowflakes keep falling

When I close my eyes

They silently reach the ground

They cover up secrets

Embrace the world in white

And enjoy the freezing night.

When I open my eyes again

Awaking from a dream

The sun begins to shine

The snow begins to melt

My skin will be exposed again

This vast white world is changing...

The roses in my darkness

Have started to wither

They needed sunlight after all

Just like I do

Crimson petals keep falling

Everywhere I look

It takes forever

Before they reach the ground

I keep falling away as well

Through eternity

Like a petal or a snowflake

Only faster, I pass them by

Never reaching solid ground

As the petals lay still

Dry and lifeless

I just keep falling down

Rocks won't stop me,

Seas won't stop me,

Time won't stop me,

Nothing will.

Sometimes freezing,

Sometimes melting,

Sometimes falling fast asleep

I keep falling through the darkness

I keep having dreams of falling

Until you wake me up.

- Inspired by that endless winter with all of its snowfall. xD

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Almost over [Lyrics]

My skin is still scratched

And still covered in bruises

My wounds are still bleeding

My body still hurts

I'm fighting like crazy

I'm falling again

But my hands are still reaching

for sunlight

But the night falls upon me

My visions are blurred

And I'm losing the last of my strength

It's getting colder, and darker

The last thing I saw

Was a smile on your crying face

I always knew you'd be able

To let me go.

My lips are still trembling

The light is too bright

But there's no need to speak

You already know

It's almost over.

So the night falls upon me

My visions are blurred

And I'm losing the last of my strength

It's getting colder, and darker

The last thing I saw

Was a smile on your crying face

I always knew you'd be able

To let me go.

I see

So this is how it ends

The sound of my breath is fading

With all the power I had left

I told you a silent last word

As your silhouette vanished before me

Goodbye

- Inspired by... Uhm... The thought of dying I guess... x'D

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Your Last Words [Lyrics]

Which way should go?

Your fingers point in different directions

My vision is blurry

I'm blinking my eyes

But I can't read your lips

Which path should I choose?

I can't tell with your whispered distractions

I need to hurry,

Tell you goodbye

And get on the leaving ship.

I'm starting to forget

About the stories that you told me

Looking at the sky

Your silhouette in my memory

is slowly fading

Unable to move

I heard you say your last words.

How long until I'm there?

Until I reach my destination

I can't remember

But I think you told me

Before you disappeared

How long until I'm done?

Until Ifinish this assingment

I'm trying to stop it

But still you are starting

To vanish from my mind

And I have long forgotten

All the stories that you told me

Looking at the sky

I can barely see

Your silhouette against the moonlight

Unable to answer

I listened to your last words

Even now

I'm still trying to find you

Desperately looking for a sign

But never will I break my vow

I have to see yout one more time

Even if only to hear your last word.

And I'm starting to remember

All the stories that you told me

Looking at the sky

I can clearly see

Your smiling face before me

I covered my ears, refusing to listen

This won't be your last words.

- Inspired by Tegami Bachi. x'D

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Something I Am Not [Lyrics]

Days keep rushing by

And I'm not doing anything

Just staring at the sky

And lingering, remembering

I don't want to see the mirror

I'll just look the other way

To bad denying being lonely

Never made it go away.

I keep making up excuses

For the voices I have heard

I can't sleep without these gestures

I can't smile without these words

I can feel my body weakening

My mind is going blank

I'm turning into someone I am not

Everything seems peaceful

As I play my daily game

Everyday I lose again

And it's always the same

I don't want to hear your hear your lecture

I don't need your worried face

Your good will is meaningless

You can't save me from these empty days

I can't move without this sadness

I can't breathe without this tears

I can feel my knees collapsing

My chest is running cold

My trembling hands,

those of a stranger

I'm turning into someone I am not

I can't live without this silence

I can't die without this noise

You are now allowed to save me

From turning into something I am not.

- Inspired by Loveless, and reality.

My Victory

I know
I'm supposed to forget
But I still dream about you
When I fall asleep
You seem to infiltrate my mind
Apparently
It's not completely gone

I think I do know what to do
I should probably just speak to you
But something holds me back
Every moment you walk by

I'm starting to forget
The things I want to tell you
I'm starting to remember
The way you used to comfort me
And what I want the most
Is just to sit with you in silence
And to have you smile for me.

Am I not worthy of your notice
If I am not breaking down?
I shouldn't long for your attention
While I'm able to laugh.

I guess I just want you to worry
So that you think of me
at all
'Cause you won't be there to catch me
If I'm not falling
Anymore
And you won't try to mend me,
Unless I'm really broken.

But this time
I have to mend myself
And so I won't ask you for help.
I do not want to lose this fight,
Just to win your sympathy.

I just want you tu support me
And to show me who I am
To tell me what to do
And to make sure that I keep trying
Prevent me from giving up
And just stay by my side
'Cause in the end,
I want to celebrate
My victory
With you.

Sanctuary (Decisions Someone Else Has Made)

Jaja, ik heb lekker ook eeen liedje geschreven met een dubbele titel! Het heet eigenlijk Decisions Someone Else Has Made, maar omdat dat zo lang is, mag Sanctuary ook. Naar aanleiding waarvan ik dit heb geschreven is zelfs voor mijn blog iets te persoonlijk, maar zo krijg je misschien een idee. (Volgens mij weten toch alle mensen die mijn blog lezen al wat er aan de hand is, aangezien dat er niet bar veel zijn)

*schraapt keel*

Reflections of my crying face

or maybe just illusions

Remembering the last few days

Can't think of a solution

In this warmth I never knew

I want to hide my sorrow

If only I could just decide

And live towards tomorrow

Do I really have the right

To swallow all this sympathy?

Did I really lose this fight?

Am I in need of charity?

Are these words really helping me?

I want to just let go of this

I want to run away

Decisions someone else had made

Are easier to accept

At least, like that, I'm not to blame

Not my sin to regret

Do I really have the right

To swallow all this sympathy?

Did I really lose this fight?

Am I in need of charity?

Are these words really helping me?

I want to just let go of this

I want to run away

If someone were to ruin my life

The choice would not be mine

If someone were to choose for me

It wouldn't have to cross the line

At least, like that, I'm not to blame

But wishing this is still the same

And just considering that okay

Would be the worst, in every way.

I want to just let go of this

I want to run away

Floating Rose

Vrijdagavond was zo'n typische, warme zomeravond, waarop het lang licht blijft, en niks je goede humeur lijkt te kunnen verpesten. Zo'n avond waarop je je simpelweg gelukkig voelt met de dingen die je hebt. Waarop je dankbaar bent, al je vrienden wil laten weten dat je van ze houdt. Voor mij ten minste.

Ik zat met Spii-sama en Hannah-chan aan het water, en om de één of andere reden was één van ons (can't remember who...) op het idee gekomen om (nep)rozen in het water te gooien voor je loved-ones. Het begon als grap, rozen in het water gooien voor anime-personages en Finse en Japanse artiesten. Maar later werd het bijna serieus. Hoe lame het idee ook klinkt. Ook voor vrienden werden rozen in het water gegooid, en het gezicht van al die rozen drijvend in het water had iets romantisch. Ik was zo blij met Hannah en Susanne op dat moment, maar ook met Rutger, Stephen, Jorine en Kuri-kun. Het idee van de rozen inspireerde me ook, dus besloot ik op dat moment al een tekst te schrijven met de titel "Floating Rose". Hoewel de eerste suggesties nogal melig waren, is de uiteindelijke tekst, die ik gisteravond geschreven heb, toch nog aardig serieus geworden.

Floating Rose

As soon as I made up my mind

The leaves began to fall

Although maybe, it excists

Perfection never lasts

These flowers will wither

Their stems will collapse

Tearing all the petals off

It's purity is slowly fading

Look into my teary eyes

And put a lid on all this hating

Your whispers interrupt my dreams

and all this time I have been waiting

for this floating rose

I'd whisper my affection

to a flower in its bloom

Entrust it to the summer breeze

And watch it float away

But it's still useless

My love won't arrive

Tearing all the petals off

It's purity is slowly fading

Look into my teary eyes

And put a lid on all this hating

Your whispers interrupt my dreams

and all this time I have been waiting

for this floating rose

This floating rose

Carry my secrets

linger on the waves

By which you will be swept away

The sand is vanishing beneath my feet

Makes me feel strong, yet so abandoned

With nothing but this blindness

Where am I supposed to go?

As soon as I made up my mind

My life began to end

Even though it's not my time

Perfection passed me by

My heart will stop beating

My voice will go mute

Tearing all the petals off

It's purity is slowly fading

Look into my teary eyes

And put a lid on all this hating

Your whispers interrupt my dreams

and all this time I have been waiting

for this floating rose

This floating rose

Carry my secrets

linger on the waves

By which you will be swept away

The sand is vanishing beneath my feet

Makes me feel strong, yet so abandoned

With nothing but this blindness

Where am I supposed to go?

The Unknown

Alleen nog even een tekst dan. =3

It's never gonna be the way you pictured it

You're never gonna get what you deserve

Every little thing that you've been fighting for

Will die and vanish, right before your eyes

I never got to see the way you figured it

I ran away instead and I gave up

In the end, the future we've been hoping for

Will fade to black, and you will realize

After all

We are all afraid of the unknown

We bother to find out

About the weather of tomorrow

But as it is

We close our eyes to visions

Of what is to come

In the end,

We're still afraid of the dark.

You no longer worry about monsters in your bedroom

You let go of your nightmares long ago

And all those vicious creatures you've been hiding for

Seem to be willing to apologize

After all

We are all afraid of the unknown

We bother to find out

About the weather of tomorrow

But as it is

We close our eyes to visions

Of what is to come

In the end,

We're still afraid of the dark.

No matter how unbearable your pain may be

Even the hardest days will just go by

No matter how unlivable their lives may seem

No one ever really wants to die.

After all

We are all afraid of the unknown

We bother to find out

About the weather of tomorrow

But as it is

We close our eyes to visions

Of what is to come

In the end,

We're still afraid of the dark.

I Hope You Understand

All these moments

When I'm supposed to be strong

I can't help but collapse

And embarrass myself

Even when I'm exhausted

When I truly need to rest

I can only lie awake

And cry upon my pillow

But when I want to cry

I don't have the tears

No matter how it hurts

To face my empty eyes

These may be the answers

To the riddles in your mind

I hope you find my heart

buried underneath my doubts

My emotions

Were hidden long ago

they're wandering in an unknown place

So that even when I'm on the edge

Nothing will stop me

From making just the same mistake

And starting all over

Once again.

Even now,

I'm so afraid to fall

If only I could feel this pain

I should be feeling,

All the time

Even then,

I was afraid to know

I simply closed my eyes

To the blood that's on

my shaking hands

I wish to close my eyes again

And never open up

So that I don't have to see

That stranger in the mirror

My name has not been stolen

I just don't have the strength

To get it from my lips

And say it here out loud

Could you just leave me freezing here?

If I don't feel cold right now

Will I ever feel the warmth

Of love, without the questions

Running through my mind

I guess I dissapoint you

But could still lend me a hand

To get myself together

And finally figure out

My ability to love

I'll start running anyway

Stop me if you can

And take my thoughts with you

As you're heading for the light

My breath will lead you home

Like the voices of the wind

But don't forget

Erasing all my footsteps

And embracing every memory of me.

Dit heb ik een tijd geleden al geschreven, dus sommige regels zijn een beetje gedateerd.

Maar de schuingedrukte regels heb ik er zojuist vers bij verzonnen, en die zijn speciaal gericht aan een zeker persoon.

No Way

Toch maar weer eens een tekst. Ik ben nog bezig met de akkoorden ervoor...

It makes me angry 

Not to wish for world peace

It makes me sad

Not to care 'bout children starving in the sun

It makes me crazy

Not to know about your feelings

It makes me scared 

Not to remember my thoughts

Even if I cry

You won't be there to hold me

Even if I scream

There will be nothing in return

Even if I leave

Then you won't try to stop me

Even if I tell you

There'll be nothing left to learn

I'm living on my own

But it seems to pass me by

Tere's no way

Any sound could reach my ears

There's no way

For a vision to my eyes

Even if I cry

You won't be there to hold me

Even if I scream

There will be nothing in return

Even if I leave

Then you won't try to stop me

Even if I tell you

There'll be nothing left to learn

If you'd appear in front of me

Your lashes soaked with tears

I could just close my eyes

Pretending not to see you

But we both know

Even if I cry

You won't be there to hold me

Even if I scream

There will be nothing in return

Even if I leave

Then you won't try to stop me

Even if I tell you

There'll be nothing left to learn

Even if you'd yell at me

There's no way I would listen

Even if you hate me

There's no way I'll give up

Even if I cry

You won't be there to hold me

Even if I scream

There will be nothing in return

Even if I leave

Then you won't try to stop me

Even if I tell you

There'll be nothing left to learn

And Then She Was Gone.

Ik zag het al aankomen. Ergens wist ik dat het ging gebeuren, maar toch. Het kwam niet onverwachts, maar dat neemt niet weg dat het pijn doet. Ik zou wel een boek kunnen schrijven, of een film kunnen maken; How To Lose A Friend in Ten Days. Ik snap het nog steeds niet helemaal. Of eigenlijk snap ik het helemaal niet. Maar ik wil het ook niet snappen. Ik wil het niet begrijpen. Vorige week zondag, nog voordat ik wist dat het definitief was, schreef ik dit, maar het gaat niet alleen over haar...

Het Einde

De afstand wordt steeds groter
Ik kan er niks aan doen
Ik kan alleen maar wachten
En machteloos toekijken
Hoe de wereld doordraait
En iedereen vervaagt.

De afstand wordt steeds groter
Tussen nu en toen
Ik kan alleen maar hopen
En bidden dat het stopt
En dat iets of iemand
Dit proces vertraagt.

De afstand wordt steeds groter
Terwijl de tijd steeds sneller gaat
Blijft er nog iets over?
Ik klamp me koppig vast
Aan de resten van mijn leven
En zie iedereen verdwijnen.

De afstand wordt steeds groter
Met alles dat ik achterlaat
Ik kan alleen maar vluchten
Me verzetten heeft geen zin
Het is bijna afgelopen
Ik zie je aan het einde.

My name is Holland. Vàn Holland.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Goedkope huurmoordenaars gespecialiseerd op wiskundeleraren mogen zich hier melden.
Na de vakantie heb ik gezellig een gesprekje met mijn àllerbeste vriend *kuchkuchkuch* : Meneer Kuiper! *Bliksem + Horrormuziek*

Zucht. Het is dat Mevrouw Kats (Miaaauw! Oké flauw. xD) me bijstaat in de strijd. Ofnouja, bijstaat... Het blíjft natuurlijk een lerares... Zolang ze me niet met die engerd alleen laat vind ik het goed. Als ze naar de wc gaat, volg ik haar! >< (Nee, niet ín de wc, alleen het lokaal uit. -_-') Er komt waarschijnlijk uit dat ik hoe dan ook screwed ben. Diepe zucht. Oké, ander onderwerp. Het is bijna... ...Vaaaaalentijnnsdaagggg! ^^

Morgen zullen ze wel weer rozen op school gaan uitdelen. Ik heb nog nooooit een roos gehad, of een zuurstok, maar wel 2 rozen en 1 zuurstok verstuurd, lief van mij hè? Één naar een leraar (uitleg volgt nog) en één naar Eliza. Naar Elíza. Bijna een jaar geleden. Vaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag idee, maargoed. Ze werd toen een beetje getreiterd op school, en we wilden haar laten zien dat wíj haar nog wel lief vonden!

Die andere was dus naar bijn brugklas-mentor/-gymleraar, en néé, ik ben/was níet verliefd op hem. Ik geloof dat het begon doordat we hem met Maik de Boer vergeleken (hij is ook kaal), en daarom vonden dat hij roze moest dragen. (Ja, ik weet het, maar kom op, we waren tweedeklassertjes...) Toen kwamen we dus op het briljante idee om hem een roos te sturen met op het kaartje de tekst "We Love Roze!" Jammer genoeg zaten we toen bij Lisanne in de klas, die het hele verhaal, behalve ons motief, de tekst, en het feit dat ik het sámen met Lisa deed, had meegekregen. Wat dus inhield dat even later de halve school op de hoogte was.

Nu ik eindelijk van mijn verliefd-op-Rick-reputatie af ben, staat me weer iets anders te wachten, maar ook dat is een misverstand. Het begon allemaal in een tussenuur dat ik met Pepita en Eline doorbracht in de mediatheek. Ik had geen zin in huiswerk, en besloot daarom een gedichtje te schrijven over onze mediatheekbewaker/spijbeldetective Meneer Holland. VÀN Holland. Dat gedichtje ging ongeveer zo:

Onze Meneer Van Holland
Heeft altijd allles in de hand.
Hij bewaakt de mediatheek
En als je niet stil bent, dan krijg je een preek.

Onze Meneer Van Holland
Heeft met iedereen een band,
Vooral met de studiebollen
Want hij laat niet met zich sollen.

Onze Meneer Van Holland
Voelt alle spijbelaars aan de tand.
Dat zal hen dan bezuren
Want ze krijgen nablijfuren.

En als hij dan de klas in komt,
Dan klinkt het al in koor:
"Hallo Meneer Van Holland!"
Maar dan geeft hij geen gehoor.

Want ookal wordt hij zo vereerd,
Men doet niet wat van hem niet mag.
Hij is en blijft geconcentreerd,
Ieder zwicht voor zijn gezag.

Dus heb je je misdragen?
Pas dan maar op voor deze vent
En bedenk ook even goed
dat hij alle roosters kent.

Als je hem beledigt
Komt dat je duur te staan.
Gaat nu allen aan de kant,
Meneer Van Holland komt eraan!

Luuk, die bij de schoolkrant zit, las het gedicht, en van het één kwam het ander. Vandaag kwam de schoolkrant uit. Het válentijnsnummer nota bene, en ja hoor. Ik zag het al meteen op de cover: Ode aan... Meneer van Holland. Mijn naam stond er niet bij, maar met Anne in de klas hoeft dat ook niet. Na ongeveer tien seconden waren onder andere Mark en Paul op de hoogte van de auteur van het gedicht, en dat zijn niet de grootste zwijgers.

Gelukkig is het bijna vakantie. Tegen de tijd dat ik weer op school kom, is het misschien al weer overgewaaid, of nog verder verspreid. Ach... Iedereen begrijpt ook wel dat het gedichtje een sarcastische ondertoon heeft.

Toch? Tóch?! TÓCH?!?!

Miracle

Whatever it is you want to say,
I don't want to hear it.
Every tear you cry
Is like poison to my lips.

Whatever it is, get it away,
Take my mind and clear it.
Everytime you die,
My sunrise turns into eclipse.

Whatever it is you want to sell me
My response is "no"
Every smile you fake
Creates a mirror in your head.

Whatever it is you want to tell me,
I don't want to know.
Every small mistake
will be a miracle instead.

Hersenspinsel

Het is niet waar,
Wat je zegt,
Het is een grote, valse leugen.
Ik heb het niet gedaan,
Ik was het niet van plan.

Het is niet waar,
Wat je denkt,
Het is een fout in je geheugen.
Ik ben juist weggegaan,
Omdat ik het niet kan.

Het is niet waar,
Wat je voelt,
Het is maar een verzinsel.
Je bent niet aan de beurt,
Al had je het gewild.

Het is niet waar,
Wat je zag,
Het is een hersenspinsel.
Het is niet echt gebeurd,
Je hebt het je verbeeld.

I Can't Remember

I'm looking for the exit-sign
I'm looking for a place to run
I'm sick of pretending to be fine
I can't remember the warmth of the sun

And I'm praying

for someone
just to save me
And I'm praying

for someone
just to calm me down
And I'm grateful
for everything

you gave me
But right now

I need you
just to be around

I'm waiting till I fall asleep
I want to sleep from night till noon
The scars you caused are still too deep
I can't remember the light of the moon

And I'm begging
for someone
just to save me
And I'm begging
for someone
just to calm me down
And I'm grateful
for everything
you gave me
But right now
I need you
just to be around

I'm looking for a way to ease
All the anger and the pain
And I'm looking for a chance to seize
I can't remember a walk in the rain

And I'm dying
for someone
just to save me
And I'm dying
for someone
just to calm me down
And I'm grateful
for everything
you gave me
But right now
I need you
just to be around

I'm looking for some certainty
To get me through these endless days
All will fade eventually
I can't remember the look on your face.

Hard To Breathe

Hunted by my footsteps
I'm running through this empty street
As I gasp for air
The pain begins to reach my feet

I'm tired of running
Your smile is just stunning
I've never seen something
As gorgeous as you

Hunted by my scent of guilt
I'm swimming through this empty lake
As it's getting hard to breathe
My body has begun to ache

I'm tired of swimming
The angels are singing
They've never seen something
As gorgeous as you

Hunted by my shadow
I'm flying through this empty sky
As I'm running out of strength
I don't want to say goodbye

I'll never stop flying
You'll keep me from dying
I've never seen something
As perfect as you.



Voor de mensen die het willen weten, het gaat niet specifiek over iemand.

Easier To Live

Ode aan iedereen die belangrijk voor me is.

So you can't return the dead to life
You can't teach me how to fly.
You can't make me Mr. Perfect's wife
But if you could, you'd try.

So you can't give it back to me
You can't remove my pain.
So you can't just destroy the thing
That's making me insane.

But don't tell me you're useless
And you've got nothing to give.
Just by being there
You make it easier to live.

So you can't make it go away
You can at least soften the blow.
And all the little things you say
Can help me letting go.

So you can break me with a word
And you can make me cry.
Without your endless sympathy
The world would pass me by.

So don't you say you're useless
You can help me to believe.
Just by being there
You make it easier to live.

Thank you.

I won't fade,
Disappear
Your memory
will keep me here.
I won't fade,
'cause I won't be forgotten.

You'll remember me. ^^